I never knew there is power deep within ourselves. I often saw people doing great things and I believed they were just great naturally.
I read many amazing stories of great people like Muhammad Ali, Tony Robbins, Nick Vujicic…. But it all ended up there. It somehow always felt so fictional albeit very motivating. I just couldn’t understand what is inside these great humans that I didn’t have.
What did they have that they shook the world with their unrivaled footsteps?
The turning point of my life
After I joined high school, I never had a clear vision to be successful. I was just another teenage girl who joined school and that’s it. I pretty much understood that I can just study a little and “pass”, which was quite enough. So in my first term I just played around with my friends, having lots of fun in boarding school and being a “mono” – a form one student.
At the closing ceremony of the end of the term, they called out the top 10 students awarding them with stationery and other good stuff. I was just seated somewhere in the crowd clapping not understanding how they were the best students “were they studying like seriously or just some naturally bright students?”. It somehow stuck in my heart but I kind of neglected it excited I am finally going home. 100+ students had A’s, I was nowhere there.
We always had exams on the first week of a new term, just to make as read during the holidays and report to school on time. On the opening I reported to school late because I waited for my friend, we just somehow didn’t care much about the repercussions of missing exams and we braved ourselves “they are just gonna make us re-sit for those exams”. Unfortunately, that never happened, so we had just sat for few papers. Results? With those 0 in some subjects, you don’t want to know!
To avoid being retained in school for bad grades during holidays, I resolved to study harder. I doubted that I could make it. But I had to do something, “I can’t stay for extra tuition when everyone else go home!”, I told myself. After lots of hard work and persistence, I passed just enough to not be retained for tuition. It was unbelievable for me, did I just do that? Does it mean I have the capability to do better? It then dawned on me, “we choose what we want to be in life”. That was the U-turn of my academic life and I can vow, that every other aspect of my life changed.
I now understood what the likes of Muhammad Ali had. Without a doubt, they had immense belief in themselves!
It wasn’t that I could not have better grades, it was that I never believed I could have them.
I chose to shut down all the voices within me that always said; “they are naturally brilliant, you ain’t that just chill”.
Vincent van Gogh said;
“If you hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint,’ then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced.”
I silenced that voice. I nurtured my mind with thoughts of greatness. I started believing in myself and in the power within me.
I never listened to what other people said. It didn’t matter. I knew what I am and what I am capable of doing on my own.
It ain’t just about academics…
You might be thinking, is professional academics all that there is in life? No its not. We are all gifted in our own ways. For me, it was books that made me understand the power within myself. That I have the capability to be who I want. I can study hard and be that doctor, that architect, business-lady…it’s all up to me. The key to what I want to be is in my hands.
Whatever your line of profession is, the bottom line is, do you believe you are in control of who you become in the next 10 years?
The biggest difference I’ve noticed between successful people and unsuccessful people isn’t intelligence or opportunity or resources. It’s the belief that they can make their goals happen.
You get to choose which road you will take.
Choose the road that will unleash your potential.
Believe in You
Self-doubts won’t disappear into thin air just like that. You just have to get better at dealing with it. James wrote this beautiful article; What I do when I feel like my work isn’t good enough.
Every time you want to try new things, doubts will creep in. But do not follow your doubtful thoughts.
There is no one who can pump you better than yourself. You know you better.
When it gets tough, recall your successes. Find your way back to your inner you and know you have the power to achieve what you want in life.
Until next time, Chao!